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I am listening to an upbeat song, about living life and loving without limits. It's so weird when I can barely hold a conversation without overthinking. I realized how protective I am of me. I feel like I have never really lived fully, without thought, without fear of judgement, without apprehension. I always have to think, I always have to have everything planned and nothing brings me more anxiety than having something unplanned and getting in situations with other people I don't know. It's getting harder as I grow since I am being forced into situations that require much interaction, much spontaneity as well as experiencing milestones with those near to me, birthdays, graduations, baptisms, weddings - I have never let anyone immerse themselves in who I am. Always left with what's on the surface and it's scary knowing I want to soak into someone's identity too.

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